I woke up with the insane urge to write this morning.
But not writing in my notebook, which I’ve been so inconsistent with.
No, today I want to type, here, on my blog.
I don’t exactly know what about yet. I’m letting the thoughts trickle out, one word at a time, onto the keyboard and onto this page.
My landlord is coming today to look at our oven. The oven turns itself off if it overheats.
I laugh at that – the idea of an oven IS to be hot and yet for some reason, intermittently, when it’s set to over 200 degrees celsius, after a short period of time, the whole oven loses power.
The oven door hinges on the bigger oven are also not keeping the oven door closed properly – but that’s only a recent thing. (Nothing I did by the way – the landlord took the doors off the smaller and the larger oven to check the seals and hinges – maybe the door springs are malfunctioning from age?)
I wonder if there is some metaphysical relationship of the oven to my body. After all, I’m the one who mainly uses the oven, so if it’s going to relate to anyone it would be me.
Or perhaps it’s our whole family?
I’ll have to let that one percolate.
(quick google search)
I’ve done a quick search – google doesn’t share anything metaphysical about ovens, only the purely logical.
It looks like it could be the element ageing and becoming temperamental and needing to be replaced.
So then, what is the “element” in me that’s temperamental and shorting out?
What is it that requires repair, because obviously I can’t just pull something out of my body and replace it physically.
The thought “Triple Warmer” came into my head.
I’m not well versed in Chinese Medicine, so while I’m familiar with that term, I don’t exactly know what that refers to so I’ve googled that too.
This was the first article that came up
and this sentence stood out to me
Due to its primary function of circulating fluids, symptoms such as swelling, oedema…
I know I have swelling right now – I have puffy little protrusions beside the outer ankle bones, but the area I’m noticing even more are my breasts – soreness which comes from swelling that didn’t subside at the end of my last cycle.
I read more and of course, the triple warmer is associated with the thyroid.
For the last three years I have been reading intensely about inability to shift excess fat, it’s relation to thyroid, high oestrogen, low progesterone, cold extremities and so on.
This page is very interesting:
…the triple warmer meridian has a similar task of burning away thoughts which make us feel “heavy” and unwilling to move forward in life – and are not in alignment with our soul . (The triple warmer meridian is a fire meridian and is the body’s thermostat)
The affirmation “I allow you to be as you are” helps us to detach from other people and bring our Will (triple warmer/thyroid meridian) into balance. Very often we exercise our will over other people and wish to be in charge of other peoples lives and pressure them to be or do things the way we want them. We may wish to “fix” people, change them or judge them.
Such an interesting observation – I do try to “fix” everyone around me – perhaps because it’s easier to see what others need to do, harder for me to implement for myself?
And my thoughts have been heavy over winter – it’s cold in Melbourne and I’d much prefer to be somewhere sunny and warm.
Unwilling to move forward – feeling stuck and stagnant with my homeopathy studies. It all feels so big and overwhelming.
Laptop issues too
I’m reminded now, as I feel that my nose is cold, that my laptop has been having issues only in the last few months where I would close it in the evening and it would still have ample battery charge, but when I open it in the morning (and it’s cold here in Melbourne, being winter) it wakes up but within a minute, the screen goes black and I have to plug it in, only to find there is still plenty of battery (I’ve seen numbers in the 40% range, 70% – a mix of numbers, but none that should mean the battery is low on charge).
Yet if I’ve been using the laptop all afternoon, or watching Netflix in the evening, I can use the laptop all the way down to 1 or 2%.
So the battery is struggling on cold mornings.
A bit like me – struggling in the cold weather, craving sunshine and warmth to warm my body up.
I’ll put this aside now and let my subconscious percolate on it for a while and I’m sure a solution will come to me.
My oven issues are resolved – a new oven was installed on the 12th of September – warmer weather and a working oven – yay 🎉